Filling the ache
Today turned into one of those days when I feel empty and stretched. My heart feels lonely and sad like someone scraped it over with sandpaper. It’s the kind of day where what I want to do is inhale copious amounts of chocolate in an effort to soothe my restless soul. I find myself in front of the refrigerator often. I keep coming back looking for something that will make me feel better. I’m lucky that we don’t keep many sweets in the house and leftover beans and rice just doesn’t work as a salve quite the same as chocolate cake.
Then I open the refrigerator again and with that cool burst of air comes a bit of clarity. I’m not trying to fill a physical hunger and food won’t fill a soul hunger. The good feelings that I get from chocolate might help for a short while, but when the chocolate is gone the ache will still be there.
I turn away from the fridge and find my journal. I open it to a blank page and pour out my heart to the Father. I make a cup of coffee and read my Bible. While I am fellowshipping with my God who is Love, I find the ache disappearing and being replaced with a peace and trust. Everything will be okay.
Tags: Inspiration
July 16th, 2008 at 6:08 pm
I feel like this sometimes too. I’m glad that you were able to get through it and find the peace and trust. I know how hard it can be to do that! Hope tomorrow brings you a fresh perspective
July 24th, 2008 at 10:05 am
HI!
First, I want to say thank you for that job opening! I have applied for it and have even found a college near by to finish my engineering degree!
Second, like you, I enjoy journalling when things don’t feel right. I am a huge fan of paper journals like moleskine. I am glad that you have found a peace through your writing. I wish I could. Writing does take the edge off of negative feelings for me… and it does give me a place to dump what I can’t think through at the time… Which is great for me.
Anyway, thanks again for the tip! I hope I can help you in some way!
-Passionphish
July 30th, 2008 at 6:23 am
Dear Kindred Spirit -
I hope by now that you’re feeling better than you were two weeks ago when you first wrote this. I thinnk you’ve hit on something very significant that often emotional and spiritual needs hit the body as physical cravings (but, hey - Chocolate ought to be the Fifth Major Food Group, right?!?)
Love your blog. Love you. You’re in my prayers today.
- Laura (Chantlaura)